If all the girls I thought I could actually be with are the girls that it won't work with… and every other way to meet others hurts me even more… then what's the point? there was k. and she left.. and has a boyfriend. there was b. and i screwed up… and she's [...]

Last night, I spoke to aguy at length. And uncharacteristically, with conviction I never desired or developed against my will, I spoke about heaven again. I hit a very sensitive nerve for the both of us. And I had to step back as I watched aguy vent his frustration and fear at the fact that [...]

[Sunday not going very well, stuck. Want to do much because there is much to do.
Found this off my then laptop. Was supposed to be first of many, but didn't work out like that. Interesting and saddening nonetheless....]
First Day – 19th of August
Amsterdam is pretty much like London. I walked back from a quick meal [...]

this past weekend was incredible. nothing to do with emotions or feelings.
but the revelation of God in a way that proves the two unquestionable foundations of my life:
1) God is eternally perfect.
2) Man is fundamentally flawed without God’s eternal perfection.
I walked away, thinking again about heaven, realizing how odd and unfamiliar it felt to be [...]

“I am the Bread of Life.”
“I find my fill in you, Lord.”
I’m thinking again about heaven… it’s been awhile.