Rather than staring at an empty <textarea></textarea>, trying to figure out how to start this, I'll start from the point where I sat down at the restaurant last night.
I was wracked with nerves. I hadn't put myself out there in about 3 years, since the last girl I pursued.
I was rehearsing disaster scenarios down to [...]

I'm human and I gave up.
I wasn't even aware that I was seceding everything to absolute nothingness, unproductivity, and despair. A cold sense of irony pervades me as I write this; having championed and fought so hard for self-awareness, I didn't sense I was falling and with it, my plans and hopes for a [...]