Enme
What’s inside enme. Midiane writes about life as a writer and himself, the writing process, his daily life, the difficult past, and the future.

I think it's a justified notice to make that over the next couple of weeks, you will start to be introduced and read at length the words complicated and relationship in my posts. And these won't be about women. These posts will be about the various complicated relationships I have with different aspects of my [...]

This past week has been a first step in very gentle and undramatic renewal. I've seen progress, hope, and possibility in myself to manage priorities, stick to a tasklist, and to write.
I would like to introduce you to two wives I'm married to unhappily at present. Yes, I am married. And polygamous. My two wives [...]

On April 1st, I'll be moving into my new flat in Douglasdale, close to Fourways, in the Northern suburbs of Johannesburg.
It's a great flat, very similar in feel and function as my flat in Cricklewood, Northwest London. I will furnish this from scratch. This weekend, I bought cutlery and basic kitchen amenities.
In 2006, I left [...]

I signed a contract for a one album record deal with Mash Entertainment on Tuesday night.
The cottage I saw a few weeks back has become available and I will be able to move into it next month, around this time.
A protracted, painful, epiphanal fight with my parents last night left my sister in tatters and [...]

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I've been going to salsa since I started my consulting job. I haven't been to a class in a few weeks because things have been so hectic with girl, work, and issues at home. But now since most of that has cooled down, I'm back at it.
Today wasn't exactly the most motivating day to go [...]

Three weeks ago, I was in the process of making a music video in collaboration with my friend Zethu, who owns and runs Mash Entertainment. The project was sprung on me one Saturday morning, overpowering me like a whirlwind. And for the duration of the time I worked on it, it was like that. For [...]

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Rather than staring at an empty <textarea></textarea>, trying to figure out how to start this, I'll start from the point where I sat down at the restaurant last night.
I was wracked with nerves. I hadn't put myself out there in about 3 years, since the last girl I pursued.
I was rehearsing disaster scenarios down to [...]

I'm human and I gave up.
I wasn't even aware that I was seceding everything to absolute nothingness, unproductivity, and despair. A cold sense of irony pervades me as I write this; having championed and fought so hard for self-awareness, I didn't sense I was falling and with it, my plans and hopes for a [...]

The past two days have been very productive. My mind has been clear and focused. I’ve caught up on most outstanding items on my list and even done some writing. I just woke up on Tuesday morning and my mind was clear.
Today, this discovered strength was tested to an inch of its robustness. I [...]

It started yesterday with listening to a Gregorian liturgy that I haven’t listened to in at least 3 years. At the symphonic cry of “… is with you all!”, memories flooded back from my time in London – service, faith, church – and my eyes watered.
For the rest of the day, the mention or thought [...]