I need to stop writing about things in the post-experience mode, coming much later after the event and documenting what happened. Enough happens between the event passing and the moment of writing that you end up writing about yourself as you are right now, rather than reflecting on the event past. This is not without [...]

Bliss/feels like this
Bliss/has to be this
It’s like a dream/But dreams can’t be this good
Every time I’ve quoted these words has been a time associated with a start of a romantic relationship or falling for someone or being in a situation with a special person. Unfortunately, inside of me, those moments would pass and leave behind [...]

Last night, engaging in a text message conversation, laying on my couch in stillness mistaken for true inner peace. Today, floundering at my desk, wondering when the streak of misfortune will end. Today, sitting at the cafe, having lunch, messily eating my baguette, unable to focus on my newly bought Entrepreneur magazine. Last night, sleeping [...]

On Saturday night, I went to watch Footloose at the Nelson Mandel Theatre at the Civic Convention Centre in downtown Jozi. It was well-acted, very energetic, and entertaining. I found myself laughing out loud at the brash innuendo and well-time jokes. The girls were hot. The guys were on point. The accents were often off, [...]

This past week has been a first step in very gentle and undramatic renewal. I've seen progress, hope, and possibility in myself to manage priorities, stick to a tasklist, and to write.
I would like to introduce you to two wives I'm married to unhappily at present. Yes, I am married. And polygamous. My two wives [...]

I really am angry today and I'm trying to work through it somehow because I really need and want to work.
I had a IM conversation with a cousin from Egypt today in the morning, eventhough it feels it's still happening as I hear the words repeated in my head and feel it rolling [...]

I just got back from watching Paco Pena's flamenco show A Compas.
It's hard really to put in words an experience that flooded over me and still is. I'll still try to explain what I saw. I'm reminded of the words of Aquinas: "After what I saw, what else can be said?"
Paco Pena is the show [...]

I'm human and I gave up.
I wasn't even aware that I was seceding everything to absolute nothingness, unproductivity, and despair. A cold sense of irony pervades me as I write this; having championed and fought so hard for self-awareness, I didn't sense I was falling and with it, my plans and hopes for a [...]

a word met another, found another, joined a fourth, a fifth tagged along
snuck by quietly, dressed in subtle colors of grey and teal
they sat down, engaged me in conversation.
the long flowing frock opened. more words purred, some guests should eat before they visit.
my anticipation, untouched white sugar.
from my guest, more words tumbled out and assembled [...]

The past two days have been very productive. My mind has been clear and focused. I’ve caught up on most outstanding items on my list and even done some writing. I just woke up on Tuesday morning and my mind was clear.
Today, this discovered strength was tested to an inch of its robustness. I [...]